| wrote an entry which i think will offend many guess ill think about it a little longer before posting it or actually i think it's smth which i shd nv mention/post
thoroughly annoyed with him i think i really need to find a good effective way to vent my anger/ a good channel to direct my anger to
it's really unhealthy for me like literally am more than aware that each time im releasing tons of damaging chemicals/hormones (whatever the substance is, dont judge my pathology) and it really is damaging my cells i dont need this, neither do i deserve this
i have to admit i have a hot temper and i get annoyed/angry very easily im grumpy and hard to please
it's smth which i shd work on, i know anger management and to be able to recover from my foul mood to be functional and not be destructive
i so feel like smashing smth to vent my anger but foresight(haha) tells me that it will just cause me more harm and i sure wont be happy w what ive done after i have calmed down
being easily angered is as good as being vulnerable vulnerable to negative external influences it is a form of weakness i need to fix it
in the short term it may be benefiting people ard me those who offend me do not get shouted at/reprimanded for their wrong-doings but in the long term it will be for the good of myself as i wld have trained myself to be resistant to all external influences esp bad and negative ones ill be bulletproof woots
was looking forward to coming home changing into smth nice and piling on some make up for fun now my mood is all ruined i just dont give a shit have zero mood for that and yes my friday is ruined hate it
get a grip of yourself ure much older than me so what you still need to grow up in terms of maturity stop being so selfish
ive decided i really want to be bulletproof mood still too foul to change into a new set of clothes will compromise shall go pile some make up now
ill work on not talking to myself that much the next time round thunder is roaring out there just as im ranting how appropriate, i say bring on the storm
ok time to check out make up my mum brought back for me. whoohoo!
chill chill chilllllll
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| lame but very appropriate and realistic in fact i think these may really come in handy
this is lame only because the boys are (lame)....
waiting for him to be done w darn paintball so i can finally have lunch woke up uber early to send my mum and my aunt to the airport ive nv assumed the role of a driver till today and this is by far the furtherest i have drive at a go frm home to changi airport and back
guess ill nap till he calls nap-o!
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